One job (nearly) done, one to go
If I hadn’t started late, today would have been my last day of work; a few of us will be
staying later, but not many — no one in my building, even (the summer students are spread over a few buildings). (Obviously lots of other people will be in this building.)
Today my officemate gave me a CD of Hawaiian music (she’s studying in Hawaii, and knows how much I loved it when I was there).
It’s been an odd summer. I’m the only person who’s not in education/math, and though I learned much about it, I know also a lot went over my head. I didn’t, quite, fit. Everyone here is getting dissertation research; I’m getting a line on my CV so I can apply for fellowships. I don’t regret this; I’ll probably suggest it to people at Dullness U (who know about it, anyhow) and at Canada U, because it’s good money for 2 months. But still, I feel oddly like I’m looking at people here through a glass.
Tonight we are supposed to be going out, as a group. I missed the last one to speak to the landlord, and though I don’t really want to go to this one, either, I know I’ll enjoy it once I’m there. At least I hope I know that. I can always leave.
August 2nd, 2003 at 11:11 am
Sounds like your summer, while maybe intimidating, was a good judgment call and good experience. Sometimes though, I wonder that in an effort to push ourselves and meet goals, we (or some) are constantly in a position of not fitting in. It’s nice to fit sometimes. And probably necessary for the soul and psyche.
I hope you had fun on your outing. Or if you didn’t, you find something else to have fun w/this weekend!