Frustrating
I must seriously consider whether or not I want to continue in this program. I feel intensely frustrated, and I don’t see what I’m gaining. Do I care how computers deal with floating point arithmetic? No.
I have until September 30 to withdraw without (financial) penalty. And I can’t decide what’s in my better interests. Yes, it would be good to be better at programming. But in the end, can I manage to suffer through this long enough to get good at it, when — especially when — it’s not something I particularly enjoy? I don’t mind it, but it’s not really what I want to be doing. And right now I feel like I’m totally wasting my time in these classes. Argh. Ugh.
Time to have real serious discussions with people, I guess. Cause I don’t want to be fucking around anymore.
September 24th, 2004 at 7:56 pm
I’d feel frustrated too. You were looking forward to this, I assume, and it’s not working out like you thought. It does seem time to reconsider. Can you do the pros and cons list? I do that sometimes and sometimes I go with and then sometimes I just say hang it, and go with my gut instincts. (I do that a lot, actually.) Hey, makes sense — if you’re not enjoying it, don’t prolong it. I complain about the time my program takes away from my family and how difficult it is to balance, blah blah, but I mostly (mostly) enjoy what I’m doing.
Life’s too short to wait for the big surprise turnaround in my opinion and half the time, it never comes. (God, how cynical! Sorry!)
September 24th, 2004 at 7:57 pm
Oh but from here on out, all my super serious posts will be balanced by Woody Torture. ;) I’m going to have to get a collection going that I can rotate out. I love this, btw.
September 25th, 2004 at 4:21 pm
It really adds something, that we get to see Woody dying every time you comment. It makes the comments so much more *you*. I am going to think about this. One friend is all gung-ho about my leaving. Which is cool and all — clearly it’s what I want to do if I’m happy when people say to get out and not if they say otherwise, advice is so useful like that, it makes me sure of what I want — but I have to balance this out with the idea that I would like to have followthrough on a few things in my life, occasionally.